25 GIU 2024 · I talked about my ongoing situation where I feel hooked on a situation and unable to let go of it for the time being. I describe the dynamics and the forces that are keeping me this way. This is classic behavior of a narcissist or a toxic environment that we're trying to get out of but are unable to.

24 GIU 2024 · I discuss another litany of their behavior towards me. I began once again to suspect it was because that I'm I'm lgbtq+. Their latest excuse is that "my insurance doesn't cover the food and transportation". I inquired if it was the hospital paying for it and got no answer. I asked another trusted resource and they said that the patient was responsible for paying for additional services such as food and transportation. Most of us are on government health insurance. I don't think that's true. Even if it were maybe they're board and cares are paying for it? Whatever it is I'm getting many excuses not to be served lunch or driven. Not to mention one of the van drivers called My Lucy phone service and informed them that they "didn't want their help or assistance" . I can only imagine the caller's tone of voice.

21 GIU 2024 · What's the first word we hear, in our minds, when we hear the word "document"? "Record"? Well that might be illegal in some states. "Share it with a legal person"? Not always. I talked about how documenting at least to ourselves can help us stay in reality about the things that happened to us and what was done to us.

21 GIU 2024 · Please take care. Before you play this video understand this may be disturbing. Once again I reiterate how real the abuse is still happening in mental health care. I share my experience.

18 GIU 2024 · I practice five modules of mental wellness and I'm careful to avoid the shadow sides of each module. This episode is about how I explained that. Is our mental wellness process authentic or are we practicing the shadow modules: extremism, perfectionism, entitlement, spiritual bypass, health anxiety or health extremism? Let's be sure that we are practicing authentic modules of mental wellness: purpose, accountability, validation of self and others, safe process of emotions and thoughts, and authentic healthy behavior that promotes our well-being.

15 GIU 2024 · Kindness will save our world and us. Can you imagine what the world would really be like if it were always interesting? I think we would crash and burn. I truly do. In this episode I talk about how I was bullied in group therapy because someone saw me as boring and domineering. I also talked about it being a form of covert abuse when vague language is used in The bullying tactic. There's also mention of ending here I want you all to be safe and call 988 in the United States or talk to a trusted individual and get help if you are feeling that way. The kind of stuff that I discuss here is sensitive. We all deserve to be treated kindly and we all deserve to learn kindness. Many people still see kindness the same way they see climate change and lgbtq issues---the subject to be avoided.

11 GIU 2024 · If someone is being lukewarm to you or cold or cool to you while you're being hot or warm to them, learn to give them the same treatment they're giving you. Stop having fantasies about it working out. It's very likely they don't want to deal with you. Face this cold hard truth and take care of yourself. They're not worth it. You are. Here's the link to my other podcast if you want to know anything else about what's going on between Olga and me: https://open.spotify.com/show/4KSQM3utK6J3bvcaLy5bwi?si=i0Co28auRm6ERhrHPSTgBQ

6 GIU 2024 · Last night I found a voicemail from my counselor asking me "if I was okay" and "do you need any support..." etc. Hoping remotely that I could reach someone human there, at last, I left him a message stating that I was suspicious of being dogged out by a phone block from the desk lady. Radio silence the next day. And no call from Olga either, the woman that I had attempted to befriend. Chapter closed. The end. Crying. Disgusted.

5 GIU 2024 · I share my experience with not being able to connect with a woman I met at IOP that I was hoping could still be friends with me and letting her go. I also share a little bit about isolation and how important it is to fix our "picker" , as we go out again and be around people.

3 GIU 2024 · Many of us that suffer from mental illness, and myself who suffers from complex PTSD and depression and anxiety, have considerable issues with time management. I share my experience.