January 16, 2002
The contemplation of career suicide

The painting is about suicide. As much as the tiny bear thinks he’s become invisible, the white goose retrieves the air from his final vision blowing it back in his direction. The goose’s thought, “There’s no proof of reincarnation—therefore, your choice should be to live.”

Interviewer: Why suicide? Are you thinking death?

This career has bloodied all my visions, leaving me with no hope or song. The painting represents what Corporate America has done to my ambition to achieve survival. No matter what’s sacrificed, there’s no space available for me to attain growth, unless the soul bleeds a deathly white—which does nothing, but enable you with a passion to let go. Modern America is filled with seekers and finders—to be both, living becomes death, and through death the chance is given birth. Without sight, I stand to fall again.