For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them. Ephesians 2:10. You are called to be a witness and a workman that needed not be ashamed in the kingdom of God. Endure the process and the journey. It will be fulfilling and enriching to you, if you don't try to escape the process. You are called for sure, but the process will make sure you are prepared and qualified by God to handle what comes with the calling.