July 11, 2001: God watches videos

As much as I lay claim on the beauty the forest offers—we all know that without the rays of true love, there’ll never be another tomorrow. What scares me most about being thirty-nine isn’t the past I’ve learned to study—being this age is a legal license to die at a natural time. People say, “Oh, he was too young.” Not really, it’s the beginning of what we must pay for. Viewing it all makes me lonely. It’s like sitting in the dark hoping someone will bust in and turn on the light. But, they never do.