I do not read from the day I presently write. I ferment my thoughts. Not for a week but rather years. I return to the daily writing long long long after what was put down on paper because I live off what I've grown from not where I currently stand. It's safe. I feel secure. I broke that self created rule today because of a burning itch to try and figure out why we are endlessly being tested, challenged, turned upside down and shaken till there's nothing left in the core of feeling accepted. Upfront I need to make extremely clear that this is not an argument with God, the higher power and or universe. On this podcast I simply ask why preachers endlessly tell their congregations that your bad day, slip with love, lost job and all other things going wrong isn't the work of a devil but rather God testing your faith. He needs to know you are walking in his image and identity. I question that type of education. No friend or marital partner on this planet would last longer than a day if the only thing they did was put your relationship through a constant test. I didn't want to do this podcast today but after jotting it down on paper it wouldn't leave me. It's almost as if the greater power is shouting, "Do it! You aren't alone! Put it out there so others can think deeper, longer and with more understanding that preachers with their way of words are hitting followers with expressions that make God Corporate America.