During worship God reminded me of the story in 1 Samuel 16 of David playing music for King Saul, and when David played "Saul would become refreshed and well, and the distressing spirit would depart from him." My prayer for you is that as you listen and worship, that you would be refreshed and well, and that any distressing spirits would depart from you. And then, in that moment of clarity, that you would surrender to God anything that you have tried to withhold from Him. Be blessed and filled with the Holy Spirit!